IT'S BEEN A LONG, LONG TIME!!

I am 2 months away from my 2 year Surgiversary. I still have no interest in food and only eat to live. I hope this feeling stays with me the rest of my life! I'm still not to my goal weight due to my hormones going wacko after having Uterine Ablation. I gained just over 10 pounds but have lost that plus more. I haven't weighed myself for awhile but I can fit into a size 14 skirt and stretchy shorts that are size 12-14. Jeans are still 16's but I could care less! I can buy tops from the Junior department in Large or X-Large that fit perfectly. My problem area is my abdomen that my surgeon refers to as "The Menopause Stomach". I have very little hanging skin, but would love to have a neck lift to get rid of the sag from having triple chins! I do have bat wings, but they aren't bad. Due to my back injury I am unable to exercise so overall I am very happy with my results. If I ever get the last 30 pounds off and stabilize I may look into having plastic surgery.
I haven't posted in such a long time because I forgot my password and never got around to resetting it until today. Life has been a roller coaster for the last year and I am SO ready to get off the ride. My Mom is still fighting Ovarian Cancer and is a walking miracle at this point. She was diagnosed in 2000 at Stage 4 and has had many surgeries and rounds of Chemo. She just finished another round and is planning to go to Hawaii for her 82ND birthday in October. Mom has the most positive outlook on life and everything that is thrown her way. I wish I had inherited at least half of her determination.
That's all for now. I will try to post again soon when I weigh in.

Three Month Weigh In

I am now down 61 pounds! I am just amazed at how good I feel and wish I would have had this surgery a year ago. I am slowly cleaning out all my BIG clothes and will be making a donation to a women's shelter in Fresno soon. Being the pack rat I am, I have plenty of clothes to wear until I get down to a 16. I found a box of clothes in the garage that had not been touched since 1998. I have 15 pairs of really cute shorts that will be way too big by next Summer.
My hair started falling out in the last two weeks. I am going to buy a wig before I dye my hair just in case it all falls out! I am getting in over 80 grams of protein everyday and have been taking Biotin since surgery.
I survived Halloween and wasn't even tempted to buy any candy. Usually I buy multiple bags and eat it all BEFORE Halloween and have to buy more to give out! We don't get any Trick or Treaters so there was no reason to buy any candy whatsoever.
I went to the Social Security office the other day to change my name finally. I was greated by a police officer who proceeded to go through my purse. He took out my small plastic hair pick and told me that was considered a "lethal weapon". I replied to him, "What do you think I am going to do with it? Pick someone to death?" He didn't think that was funny but everyone sitting and waiting started laughing. He said he wouldn't confiscate it this time but I was to leave it in my vehicle upon my next visit. Once I got up to the window, the SS worker entered my SS# in the computer and informed me that number didn't belong to me. I have had this number since I was 15 and showed her my SS card. She proceeds to lecture me about carrying my SS card with me! DUH, I only brought it with me because I was going to the SOCIAL SECURITY office! She entered my number wrong THREE times before she finally got it right.
I have an appointment in the morning with an OB/GYN to see about getting rid of my monthly horror. I hope I can have something done before Christmas. I want to have an Uterine Ablation since that is the least invasive and I don't have to be knocked out. Enough is enough!

TWO MONTH UPDATE

I am just over two months out from surgery and am down 53 pounds! I don't see my surgeon until December so I am using my home scale. I am only going to weigh myself once a month so I don't drive myself crazy. I have read too many posts on OH where people become "Scale Ho's", weighing themselves multiple times a day. Then they post and whine that they haven't lost any weight for TWO DAYS!

I had a nice chat with Brooke yesterday and she is doing fine. Hopefully she will update her Blog soon and let everyone know the BIG NEWS! Unfuckingbelievable!

My daughter turned 21 on Friday and I can't believe how fast time flies. It feels like it was just yesterday that I was in labor and being yelled at for screaming and scaring the Cardiac patients on the other side of the hospital.

I see my PCP tomorrow so I can get a referral to an OB/GYN to get rid of my reproductive organs. I don't want or need them anymore and I am tired of being in pain 10+ days every month.

I will post a new picture of me soon. Alan finally fixed our digital camera.

6 WEEK FOLLOW-UP

I had my six week follow-up appointment today with my surgeon. I have lost a total of 40 pounds! Alice said I am doing great and I don't go back until December. I am finally getting "hunger pains" and have been eating more real food. I need to try some real meat instead of deli meat. I still love my Unjury Chocolate Shakes for Breakfast.

After my appointment, I met Brooke and her Mom, Annette. Brooke is having revision surgery tomorrow afternoon! I am so thrilled for her to have this opportunity. Please keep her in your thoughts tomorrow for a successful surgery and a speedy recovery. I will talk to Annette tomorrow evening to make sure Brooke is doing well. They are staying in Fresno until she has her first follow-up appointment so I will see her again before she heads back home.

I DON'T WANT TO EAT!

I am going to get yelled at next Wednesday when I have my 6 week follow-up appointment with my surgeon. I still have no desire to eat real food. I am drinking Unjury with Carb Countdown and having tuna about once a week. I tried a few peaches, tomatoes, 1/2 of a banana, marinated garbanzo beans, salad, and deviled ham(YUK). I am not hungry and make sure I get in my protein and water everyday. I haven't weighed myself since I will have an official weigh-in next Wednesday. I know I have lost because my pants have the baggy-butt syndrome and I fit into a tank top I haven't worn in 8 years.
Last week I started having horrible cramps that lasted 9 days. I am seriously looking into having Uterine Ablation since I am not having any more kids and I can't deal with 9 days of pain and PMS until Menopause. Not even my morphine touched the pain and I was yelling at my husband to "just shoot me now". He has been very patient and understanding about me not feeling up to cooking, so once I felt better I BBQ'D a huge Porterhouse Steak for him and baked a yam. He got 3 meals out of it. I guess living on Healthy Choice dinners since I had surgery shrunk his stomach too.
My Birthday is on Tuesday so I emailed Alan my Wish List. This is the first thing on my list: http://www.costco.com/Browse/Product.aspx?Prodid=11005162&whse=BC&topnav=&browse=
Then I wrote that I would be just as happy with a new purse and a pair of Temper-Pedic Slippers. Of course he asked me yesterday if I really wanted the bracelet or spend the money on the house remodeling we are planning and I said "I want BOTH". I am sure I will get the new purse and slippers but he may surprise me. Who can figure out men?

4th WEEK WEIGH IN

Yesterday I was 4 weeks out from surgery. Since I will not weigh in at my surgeons until September 13, I weighed on my home scale. I have lost another 6 pounds bringing my total to 34. I won't change my ticker though until I officially weigh at my surgeon's office.

REAL FOOD!

Tomorrow I will be 4 weeks out from surgery. I have had a difficult time eating "real food" as my Dr. wants. I ate tuna on saltines; only could eat 3. It took me 4 days to finish the can of albacore that I mixed with mayo, pepper, celery seed. So far this has been the best thing I have ate. I tried some marinated garbanzo beans in a leafy green salad with home grown tomatoes. It was SO good. It took me almost 30 minutes to eat but I had no problems. This morning, after being up all night, I decided a salad sounded really good. I made the same as I had a few days ago and after 3 bites I put the bowl in the fridge. I must have eaten too fast because for the first time I felt like I was going to hurl. I burped a few times and the pain was gone. I immediately felt tired and went to sleep. I had a protein shake when I woke up 6 hours later. I still have no desire to eat anything. I bought 4 small peaches at the Farmer's Market and need to try one. I am getting in plenty of fluid.

I am going to weigh on my home scale tomorrow morning even though it is about 5 pounds lighter than my Doctor's $3500 Tanita scale. At least it will give me an idea of how I am doing.

I am still having sleep disorder issues that are driving me crazy. I wish I could be able to go to bed at 11 or 12 and sleep until morning. Instead, I am up all night and sleep during the day. I have tried staying up all day and then only sleep 3-4 hours and have to get up. I need to change my sleeping pills next time I see my pain management doc.

My daughter was here on Monday with her best friend Amanda. She brought another load of stuff from my Dad's and sorted through what I had brought home. I wish they could have stayed longer but Amanda had to start school at San Jose State on Wednesday. Savannah doesn't go back until August 28.
Even though we talk everyday on the phone, I miss having her around the house. I can't believe she will be 21 next month!